HOME

I feel like I'm drowning in my own breath.

New country,

New place,

New environment,

New people,

New faces,

It's all overwhelming.

Some would say, "appreciate the opportunity given to you," and "appreciate you getting to have a future." 

Yes, I appreciate getting a do-over.

It's all I ever wanted,

It's all I prayed for,

It's all I wished for,

But now, all I want to do is go back home.

Go to where I feel seen,

Where I am heard,

Where I can breathe,

Where I can be myself again.

Now, I'm appreciating home

Adjustment is really underrated. 

Almost 2 years, and I'm still adjusting

I'm still not breathing 

It's like my breath has been put on hold

The only time I get to breathe is when I see mini-ME's. 

And that, I don't get every day.

People with my vibe and energy, 

My sense of humour, 

The comfortability I feel when I'm around them 

It's as if I'm home.

Hell, sometimes I even want to speak my language with them.

But they don't understand or speak it

Get over yourself, they say. 

You'll feel like home when it's time 

When is it going to be time

3 months

6 months

12 months

Or 5 years more??

You see, home isn't just a place, but it's the people. 

They say you don't appreciate or see the worth of something until you lose it.

And I'm definitely appreciating what I don't have anymore.

I just want to feel like home. 

I just want my home back.

HOME is calling, and I NEED to answer.